Lie to me .

Hamstrings but it didn't matter I am still walking . This road is so long with no stop signs anywhere . I don't mind walking it but I don't know where the fuck is it taking me.

what you want is not what you need . what you get is not what you want all the time.

It's annoying okay ? you don't get it I know its not my job or my worry . I am still worried okay ? not okay.

Piter patter pitter patter on my window pane

why do i walk down the memory lane ?  

need I need to be sane .

money, money ,money.

money is your honey .

thats all it will ever be about .

Fuck you Mr.President. 

I am a settler . I settle for stuff .I compromise. 

The only thing you want is the only thing you cant get . story of my life .

Guilt kills you . ah it kills me self evaluation kills meh . I am hard on me .

All I want to do is never to leave my bed and sleep . I don't want to die or even if I have to it doesn't bother me except for the fact that this is hell and am not sure if heaven awaits and yet again that would be hell so FML.

You were supposed to feel me today . you didn't just had to go today. I wanted to you to be there for me . I couldn't just stop you and i have no idea why . why ? 

I don't feel like trying I am just standing waiting to fail waiting for it to collapse so I can put up my hands and say I QUIT .

 I need you to lie to me today to make it sound okay . Hide the ugly truth away. 

I need to shut the hell up and go to sleep I am so wasted tonight I know I wont sleep.

will-wont-will-wont.

When I was a kid my dad took me to the play ground and put me on mood swings.

I just swallowed air . you know what you piss me off .

need you now or never . I miss you . stop screwing with my head.

Life needs to stop happening to me.

I will go take a walk in the terrace sit there a while talk to myself and draw and then I'd sleep.
I am not crying i am just good at lying.

GoodNight.