make me happy.

I have my math exam this tuesday yes my finals start. I wasted my study break I am still hoping to pull them off some how . I hope I do. My brain melted today.
Maybe I'll feel happy when I get done with exams . I was happy for the 120 seconds that took me to finish up my cotton candy today also when I found out that the formula for combination is in my calculator and when I solved any math question smoothly ( I feel so smart when I end up doing it right I hope I manage to do right in the exam too) and khadija said to me : tum tou anweein choti se batun pe kush ho jate ho pagal. tume kush krna is the easiest thing in the world . go ahead make me happy . kush karein mujhe :p
I need to make up my mind and it hurts so bad now.
I am laughing at myself you had recently hurt so much that it took me a week to stop feeling bad about everything and yet again today you texted about your sadness and there I go again calling you up making you feel better. 
I pity myself I never stick to my word of commitment . I had decided never to talk to you again so I can save myself from being hurt again.  I always let go but that doesn't at all mean that I forget. I never forget.