I want to be remembered .

When I see something awesome I want be a part of it . I want to be a part of something good enough,something great,something just like that .
First it makes me envious and then it makes me sad because I had the chance to be apart of something awesome and I let it slip away . 
It's not always my choice . I am a settler I settle for stuff . 
It's like my concentration gradients broke the barriers holding them apart and got mixed together . My mind has slipped nto a perplexed state where my thoughts can not bind with the receptors present to translate them into something acceptable and applicable . It's a mesh work in there and I feel dirty . 
dirty just reminded me I've been showering with bathing salts and bathing essence that too scented . yeah my body is a wonderland . ( drop that grin you pervert I know its a gay song but yeah bleh ) .
DO DIN SE ITNI KUTTON VALI GARMI PARE KARACHI MEIN  AJEEB  also if you turn the a.c on all day the electricity bill can make my dad hotter . ugh . yeah . 
I am very sleepy and I don't want to sleep neither I am up for doing my assignment .
I just realize maybe that's were I went wrong not being consistent enough to work towards anything . I guess I wanted all good things without an effort for them so yeah maybe I have to settle because umm I am lazy I was lazy I was I am lazy but sometimes it's also
(but I did settle for your choice ) .
Yaar mein kitna roti hun . tou apko kiya takleef hai ? 


As for the title of this post my only fear is being forgotten or ignored . I freak out . I psyche up .