As The Pendulum Swings .

How long before I get in?
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide?
Before I know what it feels like?
Where To, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know.
How long do I have to climb,
Up on the side of this mountain of mine? 


yes listening to my favorite band i was thinking how do they come up with such sick stuff i mean you listen to a song and you can actually relate to it and i go like okay WOW ( thats why i am a fan :l ).
I am hating the tick tock on the clock they way i fix my eyes and see the needle slowly and gradually moving taking time away its not that i want more time its just that i want everything to go fast . I want this wait and torture to end the frustration that fills me up every morning and will continue to agitate me for a long period of time yet to come ( well it seems long ) .


And these days i am getting to understand why astrology and palmistry and the bangali babas ( i've seen the advertisement on road sides and ah !! well i got a hand out once too something like qismat ka haal and mehboob apke qadmon mein :l )  interests people because they cant wait for the time to take its fold , the time to pass away just like i cant at the moment .
The knowledge of unknown and what is yet to come has been fascinating us for ages and it will continue to fascinate us . well effin helllo to newton and Einstein i mean come on the theory of relativity and all that shitt but no time machine ? then life was better off without this extra chapter in physics too . 

I've always been hearing stuff like value time and time heals wound, it waits for no one , it changes people and BLAH BLAH . Since my childhood i have taken time as my rival to cut it up , to kill it and take it down thats what i had been doing up till now because it was like this monster to me ready to eat me up and bring me down but now i am tired of teaming up against it and i think that if maybe i had made it my friend i would have been in a better place now with no regrets of bringing it back or wanting to speed it up .


If only i had learned to manage it not to fight it , to spend it not to waste it in my anger , to save it not to kill it in my frustration. Then maybe today i would have had my peace of mind not confused and jumbled in the thoughts of where to go and what to do and more importantly how to wait for it to take its turn.



How long am I gonna stand,
with my head stuck under the sand?
I'll start before I can stop,
before I see things the right way up.