Things Don't Get Better

My mums cancer relapsed. This is definitely the worst time of my life just when I thought things where getting better I got slapped back down again. 

I am not a happy person at all. 

So frustrated these days samjh nahi ati kya karun? did I make the right choices in life? why did I cave in? 

I've always dreamt of having a good career & being kick ass at what I do but lately I feel like I am going to be wasted, I feel trapped.

I feel helpless & wasted all the time it drives me crazy. 

My mum has shrunk down to & become a living skeleton in front of me she wails & cries & I can do nothing about it. 

I feel like shit at the end of my day. Dil karta hai ankhein band kr ke kholon tou yeh time guzar gaya ho.

Meri zindagi mein koi asi cheez nahi hai jis se mujay kushi milay.