Haal chal .

I am going to get done with this post every fast . I mean its not very important  to post right now whats important is to study for my bio chemistry test tomorrow but bleh leh . 
I had such a long khuar day . I got this border from pathan and guess what ?  he said that the cloth wont give off color but when I soaked it did and the whole of it got ruined ( this was suppose to get transformed into my eid dress) . Now mum has been sunaofying me ever since because I wasted her money also I have no dress to wear now ppft . not that I am really found of making clothes and etc but mums yeah .
So we were ghooming phiring malls today finding me a dress . everything is so expensive or put it the other way round I pick everything so expensive and amma makes that face and I go like acha okay lets get out . 
Aik tou ye sales man/girls se mein bari tang hun ajeeb . we are shopping mum is saying that some dress is way to expensive or she can copey the desgin and make me one but they are roaming around like bees . bas sar pe he mandlate rehte hain . I know its their job par banda koi baat he nahi krt sakta khul ke -_-
It's going to be two months now as my university has started but I haven't been studying anything at all . I guess I'll fail two courses from the last semester ( the result is not out yet ) sometimes it gets me panicked but at other times most of times I don't care I just get sick and fed up of it :S 
Matalb I am going to die one and guess what did I do all my life ? I was busy studying something so hard that I feel I am not smart enough for it 0_0 
making a mark being a good daughter a control freak an obedient rule follower and then I just die . All boring life and nothing to look forward at . Also I am not like an all goodie good religious person so what if I end up in hell .  matalb yaar ye tou scene kharab ho gaya na na duniay ke rahe na akhrat ke  -_- WTF .
SO WHERE AM I GOING TO PARTY ? confuse hogai mein tou .
Ab daar lag raha hai muje . so not fair . 
sometimes I want to study so hard and be my parents pride and earn good,career ala tareen all that etc etc and then I go like acha okay whatever bleh so jao . I love to sleep <3 I mean don't you ? 
It's a gift we should embrace it :D 
I am going to study now pfft . I mean I don't like studying but also I hate to fail and be the dumb ass of the class . muje bhi first ana hai  bhae :/ 
whatttaayyy long long way to go oh no oh no . I hope I clear my 1st semester aur 2nd bhi yaar bari besti honi hai varna . I get saddest tareen . bad grades pe tou matlab more sad then my usual gay feelings vala hormnal sadness .
beta ?? uth jaun ab parh lun zara .

p.s  mera standard kitna girta jaa raha hai blogging ka . daily diray he bana leti hun mtalab I cant think of those alaa posts like other people funny or thought provoking or strong philosophical life changing something something and all that etc etc bahe jo hai yahe hai ajj kal tou .
Also I am sorrry to the people who don't understand roman urdu ( i guess that's what they call ) I don't enjoy ranting otherwise :/